It’s hard to find time to get anybody’s attention these days. Let alone try and captivate and keep their attention.
So I’m resorting to writing online. I need some kind of outlet to express my feelings, insecurities, hopes, dreams, and discoveries.
Lately it feels like I’ve been there for everyone having problems, but there isn’t room for me and my needs. Right now my biggest need is finding a pleasant place to work. I’m willing to wait six months while I babysit for a friend of mine. I like babysitting, but I’m so stressed about finding a job that I can’t concentrate and be in the present with my charge.
If anyone has recommendations/suggestions for job searches, cover letters, or using a vision board, please let me know.
I’m hoping this blog will help me process my thoughts so that when I talk to people I can efficiently express what I need from them. And right now I can’t even bring myself to tell them that what I need from my friends is someone to actively listen. Paying a therapist is good for the complicated issues, but sometimes I want to share my opinions without alienating others. I see my friends at least every other day, which I am so grateful for, but like I said in the beginning of this post is it’s hard to hold their attention. Oftentimes they feel the need to problem solve and will throw out some advice to me and expect that I’ll stop talking. It makes me feel awful, like I have no right to complain, or express my frustration.
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