Wanna be more like Jennifer Lawrence, less like Liz Lemon

No offense to 30 Rock lovers, but Jennifer Lawrence is my new role model.

Did you see Jennifer Lawrence at the Oscars? Then ’nuff said. But just in case, this is what I’m referring to: silly oscar media question

I’m listening to Tina Fey’s Bossypants on audiobook and am terrified by how much her anxieties resemble MY anxieties. For example, her habit of overthinking things, eagerness to please her father, her need for community and her AWKWARDNESS. It’s too eerie. But at the root of that awkwardness are all the anxieties about everything.

Oftentimes when I am anxious, I get distracted. For instance, I want to achieve a certain certification, for which I need to study and then take an exam. All I need to do is sit down with a book, read the book, learn the concepts (most of which I already have some working knowledge), and take an exam. This certification is not THAT important, but yet, just the thought of it produces nausea, a tight upper back, heightened shoulders and the strong urge to schedule that mammogram appointment. (Or maybe even the need to sit down at the MacBook and type out my innermost feelings).

I’m certain it has to do with past anxiety from college and my ability to freak out over the smallest detail in the textbook’s wording. “Just relax” everyone says, but they just don’t know how hard and earnestly I have tried.

Any advice out there?

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One thought on “Wanna be more like Jennifer Lawrence, less like Liz Lemon

  1. I think it is important to understand why you are afraid, because once you know what it is all about it becomes less scary. Off course if you are able to or if it is something you have to adress and you can, then do it – go to the source, but if it is something inside yourself. Acknowledge it, it is part of you after all, but don’t let it control you.

    I know easier said than done.

    Good luck!

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